Listening to: Port Blue
I wish I meant enough to someone to deserve their love when it wasn't convenient. Here comes another restless night where I'm wide awake and all I want is someone to talk to, someone who won't put me down or brush me off.
I need something to change. I am downright terrified and my anxiety is getting the better of me. I feel alone. As in, I could die right now, and no one would notice for days. Not until they needed something. And this feeling comes to me every night.
I have no idea what posting this will accomplish other than the fact that its off of my chest. I'm scared, and I just want something. Someone, to remain a safe and secure constant in my life. Because right now, I have nothing.